I be more so irritated at the fact I even let bullshit ass people get me out my hook up.
I’m starting to think honesty is a dying trait.
You ask a person a question and you get a billion lies.
I don’t know whether to question what’s wrong with them or question what’s wrong with me that I’m not deserving of the truth.
Everything makes me think of you.
Daydreams of loving you.
But the only place you’ll love me is in my drunken dreams.
Things we feel others should be able to move on from we learn is never quite as easy once we experience it.
Mastering the art of only making moves that my heart is in.
I just want to achieve as much as possible so no one can ever tell me “no”.
I don’t want to be worrying about being laid off, a union, pay cuts. None of that shit.
I’m not made to be any persons slave or obedient soldier.
No disrespect to those who are. But we’re all built different. Everyone road is different. May seem similar but it’s really not.
And please don’t tell me I need to be like another person. No disrespect ya know but fuck them..
This is my life.. Which I plan to live.
But you’re welcome to get like me..
*inserts Nicki Minaj’s laugh on “Freaks”*
I’ve been a reblogging machine. It sickens me.
It’s like you know the answer..
Actually you’ve known the answer for so long.
You’re stubborn though.
Sometimes you just really wish shit will go the way you want it to.
But yet you also believe that there is a higher power that will bless you if you do the right thing.
While you continue to do the things you want you are blocking the higher power from helping you.
Person like me don’t want much, but I’m impatient and I want it when I want it. So therefore I find a way to get it. Sometimes not the right way. And sometimes you get caught up in trusting the wrong things.
Don’t be fooled sometimes you can trick yourself into really thinking this is it when KNOW its not.
Moral of the story. You know what you should do every time. Stop accepting bullshit and doing bullshit. Nobody got time for bullshit. Let everything that doesn’t feed your soul GO.
are a child playing with matches and I have a paper body.
You will meet a girl with a softer voice and stronger arms and she
will not have violent secrets or an affection for red wine or eyes
that never stay dry. You will fall into her bed and I’ll go back
to spending Friday nights with boys who never learn my last name.
I have chased off every fool who has tried to sleep beside me
You think it’s romantic to fuck the girl who writes poems about you.
You think I’ll understand your sadness because I live inside my own.
But I will show up at your door at 2 am, wild-eyed and sleepless.
and try and find some semblance of peace in your breastbone
and you will not let me in. You will tell me to go home.” —
oh fuck, i feel like i just got stabbed in the gut.
oh my god
I have literally never felt more connected to a piece of writing in my life.
like you have no
like the world
don’t owe you a
thing.” —Warsan Shire (via diluvie)
It was a safe place.
To be completely open.
It was lonely.
I couldn’t do much longer.
To heal I had to go.
Now I’m here with you.
It’s clear I don’t know what I’m doing.
I’m not so ashamed.
Praying for a better outcome
The difference between classic music and the music of today is certainly in the skill level. In the days of dynamic music you couldn’t just go in the studio (or home) and make the same shit as Michael Jackson, Stevie Wonder or Prince! In fact, you STILL cant! It took years of practice (The Beatles) and access to special equipment that required extensive training to use. Real orchestras instead of VSTs, an actual drummer in place of someone else’s actual drumming, and occasionally a person who could legitimately sing! The technology we have now removes all imaginable limits on creativity, but in the name of declining (*not by much) IQ scores and attention spans - an entire generation of musicians and listeners with low standards has been born, making music thats easy to remember (and forget) and extremely easy to create! In the music business we have now suffered from decades of people catering to moneyless non-consumers like children and critics, and an entire community of creatives and executives scratching their heads and wondering where all the good music went. We collectively saw the money and said fuck this, I’m not learning how to play shit! We got the money/power and gave our friends and relatives jobs! We blew the money and blamed everyone and every thing except for the unqualified man-in-the-mirror and convinced ourselves that we were still the reservation-only restaurant and not a McDonalds kiosk. It killed the business, and out of its body grew the Multi-Million $ Independent Label - from Master P to Macklemore, and a million new expressions of creativity and ways to monetize. The truth is music business, if you haven’t realized the hidden success factor that makes Adele, Taylor Swift, Bruno or Frank resonate - its the FN MUSIC! The SONGS have to be GOOD! Not the same genre, or tempo, or look (*music doesn’t have a look), or even the same appeal to the same demographic - but the same FEELING when you hear it, the one that lasts for fuckin forever. The People get it (look at who’s selling the most these days!) The only music execs and critics should be people who have accomplished something in the field of music that deems them qualified and worthy - and even those people should step down if and when the day comes that they start thinking our success comes more from marketing and research than the actual product itself. It all boils down to the support of the consumer and the corporate vendor (ads) - The money comes from Ads and Sales guys! No one has to buy anything anymore! Any and all sales in this day and age are from the support of someone who cares about the artist - the more effort you put into your product and content, the more engaged your audience will be. The people I’m talking about are largely dumb as fuck and won’t make it to the bottom of this very short essay - but this isn’t for them…its for YOU! Who and whatever you are, you’re a part of this! You are the person that settles for mediocrity or doesn’t - that feels the need to constantly express their unsolicited opinion or spend that time improving yourself - that bragged about the hit song you wrote in 15 minutes or took however long you needed to make the best music you could make. You are a soldier in the war for Dope vs Money - this goes way beyond music, and way into real life - we all need to refocus and we’re all going to have to pick a side as the gap between those who are in pursuit of money, and those who are in the pursuit of dopeness quickly grows from something you trip over to something you fall into.
—by James Fauntleroy. (via fauntleroy)
ps I personally plan to fly over.